Hello everyone :) again there's been a bit of a gap between posts, I am sorry about this but I'm having a mixed bag of it in the real world at the moment.
Firstly, I am now twenty-four years old (presenting: a classic example of the 'adult millenial' in its natural habitat), which is as much a shock to me as it is to anyone else. I started blogging on Piczo when I was about fifteen or sixteen - doesn't time fly? I'm finding my twenties to be a bit of a strange time. A lot of it seems almost as though it's happening to someone else; I have this sense that this isn't the life I was supposed to be living, as though I made a side-step somewhere in my teens and have been drifting a little aimlessly ever since. Which isn't far from being the case, actually. I feel both impossibly old and incredibly young and stupid at the same time.
|Me as a young Gawth blogger. D'aww?|
Secondly, we recently suffered a death in the family, which whilst not unexpected was still a bit of a shock and I haven't quite got my head around it yet. I'd like to say something poignant in memory of a much-loved person but my emotions seem to have gone on holiday for a little while. Can't say that I blame them. In typical fashion I am doing lots of cleaning and lots of ordering takeaways. Am not 'grieving' in the usual sense, I don't think, but sort of floating through things in a baffled manner - for example, last night I attempted to make my partner a cup of tea in a cereal bowl.
Thirdly, I can sense a deadline looming for an article I need to write, which is always an alarming sensation.
And last, I have recently made a decision (at least, I think it's made) that I can't quite talk about just yet but it heralds big change for me and is a little scary. Actually a lot scary. Hopefully in a good way, but I am both introverted and rather anxious and therefore have problems acclimatising myself to change of any description. Do feel a bit daft telling you I've made a decision when I can't yet tell you what it is, but all this stuff is piling up in my head and I had to put it somewhere, or else go a bit more insane than I generally am.
So I do apologise once again for my blogging being a bit sporadic and not very interesting of late, but my faculties have deserted me somewhat and I am doing the best I can!